Borg

{This was written on my OG Moto Droid, long before the Nexus I now hold that blows it away, -phy keyboard that aloud me to limp along when the touchscreen went bonkers}
Love the droid crash recovery method. Hi puppy. Love my cloud droid, but I shall call it Borg... its closer. You're technological and distinctiveness shall be added to or own. I trust my droid top deliver what I want. It knows me. It is the personification of the cloud delivered in the Nexis in your paw. But no, since Google opened it up, onepage is on Google, you build your own net of clouds, then Nexis it. It remembers logins, learns too help you, becomes smarter, its mind to mind as you begin to connect, you with your droid, me with mine, they get to know eachother, then us to them, then eachother through them as they give us ESP. I can see live data on the screen, metrics, add health blue tooth egg... the droid will become a medical tricorder.... no more then tri... so many sexy sensors.... rawr ^..^ 2 benidrile ^xx^ zZzz,,,...
Pixelpipe is so cool! It's onepage for tweets, posts, and sms/mms, stats, digsby style one login.
Also love the tricorder app. See the power of your ESP.


Google market needs to allow taging/favorite book mark& sharing links. Like/ boo coments.
{they have added bookmarking to Play market ;)}

More memory and the Droid will never crash... it's learning... and I'm helping...

FCN ETA: 4:20

Dom/Sub quicky

that's why I'm such a conundrum, I'm emotional, but I hide behind logic, a logic mask so strong it defines me.

Which brings us to the Master/Sub relationship, Control and Freedom,
I crave being the Sub, your only care is the here and now, side to side, emotion, pleasing pleasure, base self.
I begin to enjoy Master for the power of control, the wide view, forward and backward, intellectual, super self.
Both bring different flavors of high, that's what it's about. I still think I'm a sub at heart, that;s why I crave control, being forced into the here and now pup headspace, if that's actually my strong suit I enjoy it, but couldn't embrace it of my own will, it had to be forced.

Though bondage/sleep sac/compression therapy/sensory stimulation-deprivation is a baser need, not inherently kinky at all.

Ying Yang, freedom/control

I pretend to be a logical person, but in truth, I'm a very emotionally based person, I'm more of the free thinker, artsy fartrcy, dreamer then I allowed myself to be.
I kept myself under such control that I became what I thought I was suppose to be, now that I realize it, it's so freeing.
I now understand being true to yourself.
{^ You only thought you knew then stupid, just wait}

I may be a hippy in a conservative's body :P that would explain the war in my head, the peace I get now that I stopped trying to control the free side.

Also, you brain halves deliver the reciprocal answer to each other, I discovered that when I realized that me and Star thought that same thing, but in opposite ways, truly half full, half empty. the positive and the negative, concave:convex, 2:.5 1/4=.25 1/.25=4, what is the reciprocal of zero??? don't know, can't divide by zero, but I imagine it would be infinity, it's a vector that sweeps up into infinity. I couldn't conceive infinity before. I see how it wraps around the whole of creation to come back up to zero. Wow, just wow, all thx to ktwo. {and where did that come from? Careful who you sing your praises to, idols are sooo easy to set up, and painful to let go of}
 Division is the reciprocal of multiplication 42/6=7, 7*6=42, 1/((1/7)(1/6))=42. non-integer math doesn't work on logical processors, they have to compress it.

And another thing, what's the reciprical of a transformer? 2 coils make a xformer, so 1/2 a cap is a...what?

A little looking found this

Why can't you divide a number by 0?

For one thing, when you divide one number by another, you expect the result to be another number. Look at the sequence of numbers 1/(1/2), 1/(1/3), 1/(1/4), ... . Notice that the bottoms of the fractions are 1/2, 1/3, 1/4, ..., and that they're going to zero. If there's a limit to this sequence, we would take that number and call it 1/0, so let's see if there is. Well, the sequence turns out to be 2, 3, 4, ..., and that goes to infinity. Since infinity isn't a real number, we don't assign any value to 1/0. We just say it's undefined.
But let's say we did assign a value. Let's say that infinity is a real number, and 1/0 is infinity. Then look at the sequence 1/(-1/2), 1/(-1/3), 1/(-1/4), ..., and notice again that the denominators -1/2, -1/3, -1/4, ..., are going to zero. So again, we would want the limit of this sequence to be 1/0. But looking at the sequence, it simplifies to -2, -3, -4, ..., and it goes to negative infinity. So which would we assign to 1/0? Negative infinity or positive infinity? Instead of just assigning one willy nilly, we say that infinity isn't a number, and that 1/0 is undefined.

- Dr. Ken

So did I just discover calc in my head without any knowledge of it's operation??? {I've only taken eng math}


Or the ever helpful,

How To Divide By Zero! - Watch more funny videos here

it's all a balance between freedom and control, the was the war rebels true cause was. we "in the north" don't rightly understand that, it's not a reference we share.

So, ying and yang, not the religious part, but the balance part.
I'm so emotional a person I should have ended up with tattoos and piercings, individual seeker, more goth emo dark role player, master maybe, but I was forced to use my weaker side, my logic, and reason ruled. now I embrace that side more, and I see I'm a true "genius" so trained in the logic arts added to the newfound superpowers of the emotions side, which was many time stronger then his 160iq logic, so linking, free, truly can live in the hear and now, knowing intuitively how to do the forward backward stuff to survive, but not caring. you feel content, happy and all other emotions that put you in the here and now. that tick ick ick icking that you get when hi {or drunk, or spinning}  is just a sample of what here and now feels like, forward backward stops and you become as stupid as you were when you lost your side to side. the balance in the middle is shear joy as you pull from both strengths, all is positive. you embrace all that you can be instead of suppressing it, see that's why you don't get as hi as I do {puppy}, I'm further off balance then you, you're younger, less filters,so a nudge tword center on me is mind blowing, where as other then your pain issues, (we'll deal with that later pup) you're still more neutral. so you going though the next 10 years will be easier for you, esp with me, who is you we both know, guiding you and imparting back to you in a way you can get, like I absorbed the last 10 years I can share to you in in months, like I translated it for you, I see with new eyes again. everything is so clear, just by embracing the dizziness, letting go of control, being, not controlling, happy.
Well puppy I should post this for all 3 people on the internet to see, I love you and good night, there, I said it on the record. I do love you like a friend that sticks closer then a brother, see it's even biblical :P {aww}


Percy Jackson I felt the lead's char so deep, he had to fight his gifts to fit in, release and POW, a superperson, working in your gifts is key, it's the only way to be happy in life.
Also the lotus HI was so well rendered.

RV emotional is not stupid. {the Robin Williams movie}
fam drifted and was forced to rescync, lie exposed (lie was made before sync! not fair) broke trust sync[!key!], resynced, happier, found colorodo easier people to sync with then the tight ass (wow, I just urned that warning page :P ) corporate control northerners. that's the attraction to furry, other rebel emotionals, joined in the cause to grow old but not up. that's all it is, that's why robbin hood was so strong, it struck a cord in the fabric of my existence that I wished I were in that world, where I could be free to be what I didn't know I wanted. also why I like younger people and older people, I cave the predigested EXP, of the youthful emotion they still portray, but it's not an evil attraction like I feared, the almost pedafiley, I mean look at our ages, but probable that I just like working with kids. to live off their youthful eagerness, almost vicariously, that's why people like pups. that's why I can't see words in order, my logic is so weak, but so overdeveloped, I could do great things now.
RV was the goofy movie with robin williams. I love the goofy movie, I think it's my hope with my dad, to make him proud is such a thing, that's why I crave feed back so, and why I want to be the pup and be put to extremes to make my master happy and be told good boy, not in words, but in emotions, no words, just feelings, continual streams of feelings, no stop, no talk, no logic, just communication...sync! {never out puppy}

Hoodwinked char are well rendered emotionally. again break trust and resync, north personalities in a southy woods, I don't crave the cities, I want the middle of noware south woods (or alaska), with other open people around, dude, I just reinvented the commune! furry commune, com, con, they won't know the difference, that why FurCamp.com was so great, other like minded, open minded people...except the drama. but that was before I was enlightened. now I could rise up as the furry "Christ" figure (or Antichrist) do the whole star trek thing with spocks brother, the vulcan who embraced emotion (sound familiar) who talked to people (with the aid of mind control) and helped them understand and face their fears, then you end up like confessed from legend of the seeker and turn all puppy to the person that did that for you
{scarry power that, but since I've told you I could, you can guard if you "do not want", it's never been intentional, just clear it happened through the lens of time}

prehi notes
Emotional suppression is the coldness of the north - east. As apposed to the emotional openness of the south - west, what we call stupid or childish, the extra emotional emphasis is what makes them more open and caring, like the other family in RV. (I lived in a RV with my family for 9 months once, so I GET a lot of the subtle humor, and part of why we're such a close-nit family)

Oh ya, and I understand the need for a journal now, obviously. {thank you}

It's funny cuz it's true!

I'm not a fan of bad language, I understand why people do it now, to get their connotations across, {like an !!! for speach} but there's better ways, we need a better language, it's punctuation, it's not their fault. So not to insult your sensibilities, but it may not be worksafe depending on your work :P


{ERROR, I think this was the video from Rooster Teeth on censored?}

This is a great way to show the filters we all use, if we were to say what we mean, like me and my puppy have agreed to do, life would be so much easier, but less "nice". Political correctness is the bane of expression, when you have to worry about what other people think, you filter yourself, so your intended meaning, the thought and idea, is lost to obscurity.

Like this...

And that one is more work safe, that's the joke.

Those people are very perceptive.

the change

now that I'm not suppressing my contextual side ("emotion" brain) I'm so much more capable, its like I was playing with a handycap all these years, fighting with one lobe tied behind my back. prevented from dreaming, its a sad place.
now I can dream ideas and solutions beyond my privios comprehension (though I still can't make the right letters to make the words that mean the sounds that represent the ideas in my head, but that's OK, I can do enough that English Majors can't, so I'm OK with that one flaw...and a few others ;)

English as a language sucks & teaching mastery & jocks

Connotations: literally what you think from what you hear me say, is one of the worst parts. We have a very narrow vocabulary, hence why recursion is needed. Traditional Chinese is so much richer a language with so many thousand "words" actually as I understand it, idea sounds and characters. Language is just a common tool we all learn to share thoughts. But ours is more ambiguous and weird rule laden, I say pot and where does your mind go? Like pan? Drugs? Flower? you can't logically know what I mean, you need context to discern my intended idea. That makes more work in your brain just to digest my word stream. Maul is another good word, I may say ~mauls the puppy~ but if you go to the bear type killing maul, it means something completely different then ~mauls the puppy playfully~
Text is so much worst, it's cold and dead, it's lost the inflection and tone that speaking had, the emotional/contextual data that makes an unabridged book on tape easier to absorb then reading the selfsame book in print. {try reading along sometime, hence PowerPoint} though you will get more out of reading it since you do have to digest it intellectually to comprehend it, but you can imagine easier with tape since your mind is more free to wander and fallow deeper into the story{more brain cycles free to imagine} . Ever been reading and realize your mind wander off? Half a page later you find you don't know what those last words ment, you read them, the eyes processed the letters into word sounds in your head, but you ignored the mental internal speaking.
So text only stores half the data, the raw, standardized, logical, strings of letters that equal word sounds to the reader. Not the emotional context and clues as to what you mean. See letter/spirit of the law, if the emotional context (which changes over the years and areas) were stored the Constitution would not be questioned. Like the jokes about right to bear arms, which connotation are you looking at, have guns, naked sleeveless limbs, or hanging bear paws on your wall {or arm Bears, foot ball would be so much more...interesting}? that's where intellectual houmor comes in, hence why smart people enjoy Robot Chicken, its referencal humor, plus slapstick. {and twisted}

L E T T E R S H A P E S = words.
that's why block is harder to read, less word shape to give clues. {when you speed read you look at the shape of the entire page, not the letters at all}
also explains cursive, why it has more style and such, it still contains emotional context that if you know the writer, like knowing a speaker's inflection, you can "read" the written inflection back out of it, but its still so much more subtle then voice which is muted from how you feel. its already missing the facetual expressions, the body language, the general "aura" you project {and the Eyes, the windows to the soul}. and that's why this generation is loosing cursive, they have been trained to live in a "textual" world, void of context. they make up for it with emoicons, ;-) and :P have replaced inflection. {read 1984}

Again I wonder if I have just realized what others already knew (self-taught), if I dig into the entomology (I love that study) of the word con-text I may discover I just redefined its accepted meaning, but I did it cold, I reasoned it out myself with just clues of knowledge I've picked up, I made the leaps to put it together in my head, now I own that concept and fully understand it because I realized it. if only you could teach like that, but that's what good teachers (for my type mind) do, they impart not just speak, they have to have a mastery of the subject so you the student can question them on the why, and they can converse with you to birth the topic in you at the same level, you should come out of class mastering what you were to learn, the teacher still knows more, but in those few topics you should be fully comfortable.
One of my greatest teachers in collage was my engl 103 prof, tech writing, {smoker, maybe both ;)} he would explain the parts and ways that whatever you were supost to be doing should contain, neutral opening to good will close, but most of the class was just him rambling, imparting things he's come across in life and learning that he shares with us, it's one of the few classes you wish would run over regularly, if it weren't for the papers you had due, and the easy tests, the class would seem to have been so easy that it was of no value...or so you thought. It was he that put that seed of looking at language in my head, the context and connotations, the fox-p2 gene, we did exercises on connotations in that class, and it was fun, not work. We had 2 books but almost never opened them, they are still great references today, not something you sell back to the bookstore (I always keep mine anyway, with my memory I need to go back and refresh {and highlights}) The Non-Designer's Design Book was a great one since it works the way I think. I don't know how to spell (duh by now) but I know if a word is spelled wrong, I don't know what's wrong with a layout(web, desktop pub, graphics, photo/video), but I know something is, so I'd play with it till it was less wrong, this book gives you examples of a newsletter done ok, then done better, and tells you what was changed, so you learn the rules intuitively. You were designing by feel, now you can put your finger on what's wrong, and explain it intelligently {you learn the language of English}. Like Good Eats (AB is my hero)
That's using your intelect to quantify and explain what you know know by instinct.
If I had it to do over, looking back now, I'd have invited him as my personal guest of honer/most helpful teacher at my PTK induction. Especially if he, like Equilibrium, taught in the more sublet way intentional, where you give the tools to the student, and challenge them to draw their own conclusions when they will, not force them to believe you, to take it on faith, but for them to take ownership of the eventual idea, I own this concept of connotations now, not because he told me, but because he planted that seed and illuminated that thinking, so now years later I finally learned and understand what he was teaching...so much longer, but so much deeper. I think that's how philosophers work, but he was still real, he'd make fun of the people in the ivory towers who do nothing but think all day, he enjoyed his subject with a passion, but still could get it done.

That's why I know I'm no uber-genius, I can still function too well, I can do more then tie my shoes, I can enjoy sports, so I'll never be an Einstein, but I can take comfort in the fact that I can do and enjoy simpler things, especially now.

Genius is making discoveries from your observations, those leaps of "logic", I think almost everyone is capable, it's just how useful, new, and grand the discoveries are. Hence why I don't see myself as extra-ordinary.

Jocks don't understand Intellectuals and vis a versa. to an smart person (Intellectual) the body is a vehicle to get the brain around, get from place to place and survive: to a physical person (Jock) the brain just allows their body to do what they want it to do, run, jump, throw. I exagerate to prove my point, but all gereralzations are false, including this one.

{editing this site, well, updating really, I'm amazed by the subtle truths I layed 3 LONG years ago. I forgot most of what I wrote, don't FULLY agree with some thoughts (that's called groth) but I'll let the past stand on it's own before God and man and just augment and update as needed. I've re-learned so much reading my own shit, but again, lest I get drunk on my own wine, it's not that I have anything to be prideful of, I'm just a tool who's here to love and share what I'm given. The best gift is free.}

cortex

I'm so much smarter when I'm doaped, so fun, but I can watch the way my mind works, like debugging it with watch windows and breakpoints {it changes the speed at which reactions occur}

OMG puppy, rebreathing to past spray levels is mindblowing, I must have a very strong will to hold tight with my mouth. death will be fun not inhearently painfull. Its not something to be feared, just avoided. I understand adrenaline junkies now, now this is assuming you're secure in what's after the point when your brain goes dark.

When you get scared, the pit of your stomach jolt, its like that just longer. I wonder if that's part of the problem, adrenaline causes your higher brain functions to lag momentarily, that blackness that descends for a moment, when you go into shock, that dip {I pass out when needles are involved} . You stop seeing because you stop perceiving from your eyes to the cortex. Like with the electro plug, blackness was descending even though my BP may have been fine, you literally start blocking things out, if you developed your mind enough you could make yourself go blind by force of will alone.

If all your brain's nurrons are the same construction {more or less}, then they must come preprogramed {DNA???}, so you end up with all the same lobes doing the same functions. Like a boot-rom at birth, you can't remember memorys from then because all the references have changed. Its still there, but you can't access it, like its written in a language you've forgotten, genetic memory makes some more sense, if you can tap that unreferenced data...wow.

I've reinvented how the brain works, layed out a believable theory, by my self, when I didn't have knowledge of the subject, I just looked at it and thought about it till these revelations came to me, sparkling further thinking and discovery. Am I truly that smart? I doubt it. {again, it ain't me, I'm just the clay}

I just imagine it works that way by way of explanation to satisfy myself, guided by what I have picked up, and filling in all the blanks to make it a perfect therory in my mind. Thats all, just a story teller who ponders brain operation. But if I turn it to other subjects (especially near my field) like dürPAWboard I can innovative beyond what's been done.

And it explains Anastasia, your cortex stays up, but your mind halves get discombobulated so you can't remember or perceive, the body lives, but the spark is dimmed, like a coma. {you feel the pain, but don't perceive it, so you don't care}

What it is, is the ability to dream up reasons why it may work, then logically eliminate the non possible ones. Dream/idea side spews ideas that logic sorts through {white noise}. Maybe true logic resides in the cortex as it arrives at the discission, since discission and discusstion are so close, two arguments for their ideas waring in your cortex. But those with a strong bridge can share L/R to make better ideas for both to present. Like a graphics processor and a CPU each presenting their answers to you for use, some cases the logical core has a better answer, others the stream processor wins. Your optic nerve ends in your video capture card, it turns brightness impulses into references, memories. {the second side receives the noise, which contains everything, all the notes, and limits it the just the tones you need to build a symfony}

L/R

perhaps it's that your left and right hemispheres lean one way or the other, so one is forward/backward and the other side/side, reason appeals to f/b and feeling to s/s, but both sides still run and provide solutions to your cortex, just the strength of the ideas is based on your side's abilities, you learn which to obey in your will (cortex) from your mind (logic, step) and emotions (feelings, link).
That's why when you listen to your emotions it ustualy for the pleasure and stimulation, looking side to side, at the here and now, logic gives prudence, wait, forward and backwards looking.
As we develop both sides they pervide stronger answers, but you could live without one ove them, you just have to rewrite your software. {hence why lobotomized patients can relearn most everything}
Creativity comes from the emotional side, even when its on a logical topic.

perhaps that base emotional state, when dieing or really stoopid is just your cortex, like it has the firmware, BIOS, hypothalamus, mustual memory, reflex, positive stimulation seeking, newborn selfs, then you develop 2 different, problem solving programs, both of which present their ideas back to the cortex, (if the problem was presented from the spinal cord) otherwise when you see things it travels through your filters (brain) and the halves present the usable intel/data/thought to the cortex. that's why hand eye courdnation is so critical, vistual processing to idea to disction to action, and why kids are ADD, overdevelopment.
logic us the thing, the letter of the law: creative-emotional is the context, spirit of the law.

It's all so clear {and yet so much more to see}

slowly typed from my Droid with pixelpipe

Logic As An App?

Question: Is it possible to have a Vulcan, purely logical, society, or even exist?
Posit: Could it be that it's all really emotion, and logic is just an app we run on top of it, to suppress the emotion.
A society could not survive if it were completely logical.
Animals are slightly logical over all emotion, simple reaction to stimulation, teaching tricks is the basic logic they gain.
Existence is emotion, logic is intelligence, the spark of your soul is the self-awareness, and logic grows from there .
Emotion, responses to stimulation, is the OS, more the firmware: logic, reasoning the responses to processed stimuli, is the programs that make it do anything useful.
Color is illogical, so are relations.
Inflection in your voice is illogical, as is any discoveries or debugging, any jump of logic is emotionally based, that spark of creativity is emotional. So you could never repair the food machines.
Suspicion and fear and hate and reacting in any non-logical manner, is emotion, by definition, logic is developed.
That's why altering you brain chem levels, or being less mentally developed, allows you feel more because you can't reason out of it.
So you could never be pure emotion, you may bury it under logic so deep, suppress and ignore it, but never exist without it
"Equilibrium" is not possible, even pain is not logical, it's impossible to imagine with logic how it would work, you have to have emotion for the spark of innovation to do anything, where do goods and food even come from?
Smells are not logical, hence why humans don't like scenting, and why smells can cause such emotion, like music, aromatherapy is such a low level link to your feelings. When you smell something, or hear music, it reminds you how you FEEL about it, not the logic that goes with it! {though it does filter up}
That's why you get the munchies when high, and enjoy music so much more, as well as more carnal pleasures, logic is suppressed, allowing you to behave less logically, so you'll eat more because you don't have the logical conscience telling you not to, so if it feels good, you keep doing it. That’s why doing “wrong” feels good, it’s an emotional high, otherwise you get intellectual pleasure {same feel good chems} from doing what’s logical/right.
So a cartoon that makes you suspend disbelief is emotional, this movie and the likes of "Batman Begins" where it's plausible, everything is logical and conceivably explained, it's logical.
So watching the movie was great, I caused me to challenge the ideas it presented, and low, a new revelation was born unto me ;) Highly recommend.
(and yes, I may have phrased my Question/Posit wrong, but I'll get to the scientific method soon enough I hope)

Also my "extra-ordinary" "genius-type" abilities may be due to my innate ability to think beyond my disciplines, to know things I haven't learned nor even thought about per se.
{Update: Dam I sound prideful, but I hope you know what I mean. Check out the book Structures of Scientific Revolutions, it's a heavy, post grad read, I had to look up words, but echos this construct...and I hadn't read it when I wrote this 3 years ago}

And another thing, The Tooth Fairy is a great film at exposing the emotional side, for myself, I feel like I was between the kid and star. Dream damaged and for the kid, I was emotionally vulnerable as a kid, I'd cry at the drop of a hat, I seemed retarded, I was sent to the school counselor, they wanted to medicate me. I would flame into rage anger, seeing red, tunnel vision type. As I learned to "control" my emotions by learning logic I lost most feelings, not just the excessive ones.

{I once bit an older gentleman at church cuz I was getting a long drink of water at the fountain and he wanted me to move...always been an Alpha I guess :p }

And this may be worth looking into

This was funny

I added it to my Netflix queue,
and noted the Move to position button,
so I removed it and added 49 other things just to make this work,
sad but funny.

Genius

Just as saints are not sainted till after death, so to "geniuses" are not recognized till they're discovered.
There is a world of geniuses out there who will never know it.
They have the spark, but since they may lack some basic skills that people deem a sign of base intelligence they are told they're stupid, when they may be the next Einstein.

"The secret of genius is to carry the spirit of childhood into maturity."
- T. H. Huxley

"There are children playing in the street who could solve some of my top problems in physics, because they have modes of sensory perception that I lost long ago."
- Robert Oppenheimer

More Wonderful Quotes

{Update: I was "retarded" during my stay in public school, up to 4th grade, I have the CAT test from when I left, I was behind, they wanted to medicate me...but I built a double helix DNA model out of toys and the teacher said "Do you know what this is?" I didn't yet. One year in Home School and I jumped to collage level in some subjects... Just something to think about}

Wizards

 So, is it possible that there is a ocean of intelligence out there for us to tap into, a truly unlimited source, perhaps an intelligence network, pseudo-physic? Would explain the precision of the pyramids and other near impossible tasks, even with todays tech, if there were a global network, or there's the fringe sci world power net.

 Anyway, is it possible that wizards, be they Merlin, an Aztec priest, or Tesla, have just tapped into the state where you can freely make leaps and assumptions in areas where you have no knowledge {but can use when viewed it in your earned wisdom}, and area's where you do have knowledge you can innovate to unheard of levels. Innovate to levels unparalleled for their age, so they seem out of time, the limit comes with what's possible in their lifetime, Tesla couldn't have achieved microchips. The tools and technology weren't there yet,
 Just a floating thought, it seems to make some sense though

"It is really quite amazing by what margins competent but conservative scientists and engineers can miss the mark, when they start with the preconceived idea that what they are investigating is impossible. When this happens, the most well-informed men become blinded by their prejudices and are unable to see what lies directly ahead of them."
- Arthur C. Clarke, 1963

Here we go: first blog post ever!

So, I've had some interesting revelations as of late, so to allow myself to be consistent, remember everything for the future (journal), and share for anyone who cares, here it is.


I don't claim to know anything, I'm sure of almost nothing, now more then ever, but sometimes those who know they know nothing, know the most, as my father would say, "darn fool didn't know it couldn't be done so he went and did it anyway"

I have a rather unique view on the world, having learned many things in many areas; I have a broad knowledge and experience, which nets wisdom. I am an engineer by profession, in may fields, programmer, an artist in some technical ways (video, photo, inventing), but still a real person. I am no true expert in any one field, Jack-of-all-Trades.

I will freely admit that I can't spell, do math in my head, or even remember the alphabet; which makes one feel VERY stupid, even though I graduated collage PTK with a 4.0 GPA, have patents in my name, and many other positive marks from others that say I'm capable, smart, and successful.

I'm a furry, I like how furrydom says it's ok to enjoy simpler, emotional things. I have a pup with my mate (wife) both of whom I love very much, my pup and I enjoy exploring kink and dom/sub with him (as my wife isn't into that as deep, so she gave me him).

There are a million other oddities about me, I'm a twisted pup, but that makes one unique and interesting, so I am very unique furson ;) I try to be real above all, real odd, but real.

“The most successful men in the end are those whose success is the result of steady accretion. It is the man who carefully advances step by step, with his mind becoming wider and wider - and progressively better able to grasp any theme or situation -”
-Alexander Graham Bell